How in the world did we get to this point? How are we past the 39 week mark and really just waiting, waiting for this little person to enter our lives?
Funny how quickly 9 FULL months can go by so slowly...and so quickly at the same time. And now we just have to sit and wait until this little one is ready to make his/her appearance.
This is such an interesting time for me.... So much anticipation and excitement, yet some fear, too. Will this labor be hard? Will Neva adjust okay? Am I going to be able to handle 2 children? How is it all going to go? It's an exciting yet scary place to be, for me. That business of forgetting what childbirth is like has not been true for me. I remember it quite vividly and am sure that's why I'm feeling nervous this time around. Yes, I know I can do it. I don't have a choice! But I would prefer it to be easier and shorter this time around. I want to be less afraid, more calm, more confident this time. I want Neva to witness this experience and think, "My mom is a bad ass!"
I'm trying to savor every single cuddle with my big girl and trying to wrap my head around sharing my attention with another little human. We had a small issue this weekend around snuggling with one of our cats. There's just not much room on my lap these days, so I informed the cat that I could not snuggle. Neva was convinced I was talking to her and burst into tears. Nearly broke my heart... "You don't want to snuggle me, Mom?" "You couldn't stay like this forever?" It took a good 10 minutes of explaining that I was talking to the cat and not to her, that I'll always want to snuggle her even if she has to share my lap with the new baby....I will ALWAYS have time and room to snuggle her. My little sensitive girl....I hope this adjustment goes smoothly!
I am ready to be done with work! One day of pain and hard work, for a six week vacation! :) Really, I'm just tired of the silly comments! Today, a co-worker came into my office to see if I was still here and just sighed, then turned around and left. Yesterday, someone said, "Would you just pop already?" Sorry that my presence is bothering you, I'll be sure to let my growing child know that! People are so odd sometimes!
So, we are anxiously/impatiently waiting. Lots of walking and trying to keep our minds occupied right now. Our pantry is full, the fridge is bursting, the freezer and the deep freezer can absolutely not hold another ounce of food. The birth team is coming together....Momo is here and Aunt Mandy is just a phone call away. At my appointment yesterday I was 40-50% effaced and 2cm dilated. So, we're getting there. Slowly but surely. And I'll take all the progress that happens without me even knowing!
See you soon, baby!
Funny how quickly 9 FULL months can go by so slowly...and so quickly at the same time. And now we just have to sit and wait until this little one is ready to make his/her appearance.
This is such an interesting time for me.... So much anticipation and excitement, yet some fear, too. Will this labor be hard? Will Neva adjust okay? Am I going to be able to handle 2 children? How is it all going to go? It's an exciting yet scary place to be, for me. That business of forgetting what childbirth is like has not been true for me. I remember it quite vividly and am sure that's why I'm feeling nervous this time around. Yes, I know I can do it. I don't have a choice! But I would prefer it to be easier and shorter this time around. I want to be less afraid, more calm, more confident this time. I want Neva to witness this experience and think, "My mom is a bad ass!"
I'm trying to savor every single cuddle with my big girl and trying to wrap my head around sharing my attention with another little human. We had a small issue this weekend around snuggling with one of our cats. There's just not much room on my lap these days, so I informed the cat that I could not snuggle. Neva was convinced I was talking to her and burst into tears. Nearly broke my heart... "You don't want to snuggle me, Mom?" "You couldn't stay like this forever?" It took a good 10 minutes of explaining that I was talking to the cat and not to her, that I'll always want to snuggle her even if she has to share my lap with the new baby....I will ALWAYS have time and room to snuggle her. My little sensitive girl....I hope this adjustment goes smoothly!
I am ready to be done with work! One day of pain and hard work, for a six week vacation! :) Really, I'm just tired of the silly comments! Today, a co-worker came into my office to see if I was still here and just sighed, then turned around and left. Yesterday, someone said, "Would you just pop already?" Sorry that my presence is bothering you, I'll be sure to let my growing child know that! People are so odd sometimes!
So, we are anxiously/impatiently waiting. Lots of walking and trying to keep our minds occupied right now. Our pantry is full, the fridge is bursting, the freezer and the deep freezer can absolutely not hold another ounce of food. The birth team is coming together....Momo is here and Aunt Mandy is just a phone call away. At my appointment yesterday I was 40-50% effaced and 2cm dilated. So, we're getting there. Slowly but surely. And I'll take all the progress that happens without me even knowing!
See you soon, baby!
Very exciting time! Sending love and prayers!����
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