I didn't think we would be going past our due date and waiting for this baby to arrive! I kind of thought I might be able to catch a break this time around since Neva was so late!!
This is a hard place to be, for me. Not making a lot of plans because you just never know what might happen. And I've been having tons of contractions for the last week, so it always seems like it COULD be time and then everything stops. I was so convinced this baby was coming last week, that we called my sister to start making the trek over. Now I'm worried that she'll have to go home before this baby arrives and I've wasted tons of her time!
Today, I'm also struggling mentally. I don't know why, but having tons of doubts about myself.... Can I handle a natural childbirth again? Will this labor last for 24+ hours? I got so worked up about it at work today that I got hot and sweaty, felt my blood pressure go up, even got a little light-headed....and have cried several times. Self doubt is a nasty, nasty thing.
I knew today would be a challenge at work. Now that I'm officially past my due date, I get to listen to everyone's ridiculous comments continue. Yes, I'm still here. Yes, I'm still pregnant. Yes, I'm going to keep showing up every day until this baby arrives because our maternity plan sucks and I only have 2.5 weeks of unpaid time off. So sorry that my presence is annoying to you....the feeling is starting to become mutual!
In the meantime, I'm enjoying lots of walking and hiking, spending time with my family including Momo, Aunt Mandy, Elliott and Drew. It's fun (and a bit challenging) to watch Neva and Elliott play together and knowing that soon this baby and Drew will likely have a similar relationship! We'll just have to see if Drew will have a boy to play with or a little girl!
This is a hard place to be, for me. Not making a lot of plans because you just never know what might happen. And I've been having tons of contractions for the last week, so it always seems like it COULD be time and then everything stops. I was so convinced this baby was coming last week, that we called my sister to start making the trek over. Now I'm worried that she'll have to go home before this baby arrives and I've wasted tons of her time!
Today, I'm also struggling mentally. I don't know why, but having tons of doubts about myself.... Can I handle a natural childbirth again? Will this labor last for 24+ hours? I got so worked up about it at work today that I got hot and sweaty, felt my blood pressure go up, even got a little light-headed....and have cried several times. Self doubt is a nasty, nasty thing.
I knew today would be a challenge at work. Now that I'm officially past my due date, I get to listen to everyone's ridiculous comments continue. Yes, I'm still here. Yes, I'm still pregnant. Yes, I'm going to keep showing up every day until this baby arrives because our maternity plan sucks and I only have 2.5 weeks of unpaid time off. So sorry that my presence is annoying to you....the feeling is starting to become mutual!
In the meantime, I'm enjoying lots of walking and hiking, spending time with my family including Momo, Aunt Mandy, Elliott and Drew. It's fun (and a bit challenging) to watch Neva and Elliott play together and knowing that soon this baby and Drew will likely have a similar relationship! We'll just have to see if Drew will have a boy to play with or a little girl!
Here we are at 40 weeks, getting ready to hike up a mountain.
Being princess Anna.
Absolutely exhausted after a weekend with cousins!
Why wouldn't you wear your ballerina clothes to the park?
LOVE the photos! I am with you, sister. And, I would be thinking the same thing if I went past my due date again with a second pregnancy... seems only fair you should have gone early!
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